Don't Give Up

Have you been physically, emotionally or spiritually abused? If you answered yes to any of those - Hear me when I say this - God did not intend that for you! When the bible tells us we will suffer for His Name sake, it did not mean that we have to stay in unhealthy relationships or tolerate someone intentionally mistreating us. Christians will be persecuted, yes... but that is a rabbit hole for a different day.  What I will tell you is this - The bible is full of scripture on how we are to love and respect one another. Husbands love your wives as Christ loved the church. Ephesians 5:25 Love others as you love yourself. Matthew 22:39 A friend loves at all times. Proverbs 17:17 Honor one another. Romans 12:10 Carry one another's burdens. Galatians 6:2 The bible is full of instructions on how and why we are to care for each other.  I'll be honest with y'all. When I started this journey, I was thinking I would start incorporating daily face masks, monthly massage appointments, ...

I am on a new path and I am hoping and praying that this path will intersect with the old path I was on several years ago and I will eventually be right back where God wants me to be. And maybe I am where I am supposed to be but honestly I don’t feel like it. I know what I’ve done and what I should have done and for that I am paying a dear price. However, I also believe everything happens for a reason even if we don’t understand that reason and I also believe that God doesn’t waste our hurt. Let’s just pause for a moment and let that comment sink in. God doesn’t waste our hurt. The bible says every tear we’ve ever shed is bottled up in heaven. Our tears are precious to God and anything we’ve gone through, no matter how excruciating, God will use for good, if we allow it. That is the hard part. Are we willing? I believe if we focus on the positive then it’s easier to see the positive. The same goes for the negative. I don’t know about you but I don’t have time to waste on being negative...

Welcome to my new series, Self Care. After getting engaged, I figured it was time to retire the Dating Chronicles and focus on something a little more encouraging. Although there are some unpublished blogs from that series that I’m dying to post… like seriously, the struggle is real… heehee In case you are new to my blog, here is a brief recap. I was married for 20 years, worked in ministry, wrote a book titled “Don’t Give Up”, traveled all over to speak and encourage others, then my husband left. I went on to film a movie with Dean Cain based off of said book while separated, then I spiraled out of control, walked away from God, dated a lot of men, found one I liked enough to date again, got engaged and started rebuilding my life with God and realized that I had neglected myself, to the point of self abuse, while attempting a pathetic rebuild of my life… I know there is a blog somewhere with a longer version… but that about sums it up. While trying to heal from my then husband walking...

Do you ever feel like you are on the train of life and you aren't sure which emotional stop you should hop off? Do you feel happy one second and depleted the next? It isn't that you are depressed, it's just life is moving and throwing stuff at you faster than you have time to respond and or recover, heal, absorb.  Your thought train arrives at the terminal of this wonderful thing has happened and you are about to get off and really sit with your happiness and enjoy the moments that lead you to this state of euphoria when all of a sudden, the train speeds up, flies passed the stop and then halts at the next stop, and this stop, is the stop of verbal insults. A stop you are pretty sure you weren't planning on stopping at. Now you are in a waiting room, waiting for the next train to come and get you the heck out of here. Sitting in your sadness and completely unable to remember the happy thing that just happened because now someone or something has come along and robbed yo...

Remember the days you prayed, for the things you have today. One of my friends posted this saying the other day and it really resonated with me.  I have been on a healing journey since 2020 and I have lost track of the thousands of prayers I’ve cried before the Lord. If you follow my blog then you know 2020 is the year my husband of 20 years and I separated. And it wasn’t just the separation, it was all of the things that came with it. I was broken in ways I didn’t even know I could be broken.  I literally had to rebuild my life. My entire life. I’ve tried multiple times over the years to explain the sheer devastation that this life event had on me and I always seem to fall short. If you have gone through tragedy, I’m sure you can relate. If you haven’t… then praise God and remain humble and grateful. I want you to hear this next statement repeating over and over again in your mind just like the one I couldn’t shake. Whatever you go through in life is more important to God tha...

If you are a female and have entered the glorious season of life known as perimenopause then you will be able to relate to everything you are about to read - and I want you to know, you are not alone. If you are a survivor of this horrific physical war against yourself, I salute you - You are my idol… if you are not female nor of that special age yet then you may want to hit the X and not read any further.  It started 17 years ago… oh you laugh… but my beautiful daughter was born 17 years ago, the last of the 3 children I gave birth to, and truth be known, I haven’t slept a solid 8 hours since. I haven’t slept an entire night through in 17 YEARS!  This was just the beginning. Shortly after she was born I started with nights sweats. And when I say night sweats, I don’t mean a little clammy forehead… I mean saturated sheets, puddles of liquid collecting between my boobs and getting up to go outside to stand in the snow, naked, in the middle of the night kind of night sweats! The...