I Still Love You

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You can love me, hate me, like me, dislike me, talk about me, judge me, disagree with me, wish me malice or what have you, but I will not be shaken. I still love you. This is my heart. I have learned that my love for you, has nothing to do with me, but is all about Him.
My peace comes from Him. My love comes from Him. I will not be shaken. I will not be moved. I will not be bullied, or scared, I will not cower in fear, or stop loving because you don’t like what I’m doing. I still love you.


I have learned that I can do all things through the One who loved me first. I have learned from His example that it is possible to be hated and in return show unconditional love. I have learned that bearing my cross is a journey I will do, assisted only by the One who created my path. I am not alone.
I have learned because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, so are you. I have learned I was not the only one He died for, He died for you too. He loves you, I must love you too. I have learned His ways are not my ways, His thoughts are not my thoughts, but His ways are so much greater, that I will never understand them while trapped in this body of dust and earth.
I have spent too many nights crying in the dark, feeling alone, defeated, confused and hurt by your words and judgements. I will not go there again. I still love you. I have learned that I am more than a conqueror through Him that died for me. I do not have to like what you have done or what you have said, to love you. I still love you. I do not have to associate with you, agree with you, like the choices you make or what you stand for, to love you. I still love you.
I love you because you are His creation, not mine. I love you because He has a plan for your life. I love you because you are called for His purpose not mine. I love you because you are precious to Him. I love you, because He has asked me to, in His word. I love you because you are valuable to Him and there is none like you. You are irreplaceable. You are one of a kind. You are who He made you to be.
War comes from hate, misunderstanding what you do not know, judging without all the facts and placing blame from a place of opinion. Through all of this, I still love you.


Love is patient. Love is kind. Love does not envy. Love does not boast. Love is not proud. Love does not dishonor others. Love is not self-seeking. Love is not easily angered. Love does not keep a record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil. Love rejoices in the truth. Love protects. Love trusts. Love hopes. Love always perseveres. Love never fails. (1 Corinthians 13)
It is easy to love those who love us, but the true test of love, is how we love those who don’t love us. Oh how our world would be a place of peace if all would choose to love. But I have learned I cannot control the world, I can only control me. True unconditional love. I have found it. I will never let it go. Jesus is my love.

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