Why I Need Jesus

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Oh how I need Jesus. Besides the fact that I believe in eternity and sin and hell and heaven and repentance; there are a lot of other reasons that I need Jesus.  I have seen myself without Him and it is not a pretty sight. I am such a terrible person without Him. Without Him, I think only about myself and what makes me happy. Without Him, I push others aside and focus on my wants, my needs, my desires and I never give a second thought as to how my behavior, my words or my actions will affect someone else. Without Jesus, I am prideful, stubborn and downright mean. Without Him, I am impatient and easily irritated and find it hard to let things go.  I need Him. I need Jesus. Every hour of every day, I need Him. Without Him, I feel empty, lonely, lost and sad.

Without Jesus, I let others hurt me, I let what others think about me, shape me into a different person. Without Jesus, I lose sight of what is really important. Without Him, I seek unhealthy things to fill His place in my life. There is a hole in my being, that can only be filled by Him. Without Him, there are scales over my eyes, keeping me from seeing the truth, about myself and others. I need Jesus.

Some say I am weak because of my faith. Some say they don’t need Jesus to see clearly. I do. I need Him. I need Him so I can forgive. I need Him so I can be selfless. I need Him so I can be a good wife, mother and human. I need Him.

His Words, bring me to life, they inspire me, they teach me, they encourage me, they make me feel complete.

I do not feel bound by the rules and commandments in His Word, I feel free, I feel like a warrior, I feel like I can do anything. Some say they don’t need Him to feel these things. I do. I do not feel weak for needing a Savior, I feel strong, for being able to humble myself and say, I know I am not perfect, I know I have done a lot of wrong in my life, I know, I can never truly be sorry enough for the things I have done, but knowing that there is One, who loves me unconditionally, One that never holds things over my head or One that throws my past mistakes up in my face, makes me feel strong, secure and special.

I need Jesus, because, I believe He created me, and just like I love my children, that I created,  and want to have a relationship with them, I know He loves me, and wants to have a relationship with me.

There are a million reasons, and maybe more, why I need Jesus. But all I need to know, is Him.

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