Don't Give Up

I am on a new path and I am hoping and praying that this path will intersect with the old path I was on several years ago and I will eventually be right back where God wants me to be. And maybe I am where I am supposed to be but honestly I don’t feel like it. I know what I’ve done and what I should have done and for that I am paying a dear price. However, I also believe everything happens for a reason even if we don’t understand that reason and I also believe that God doesn’t waste our hurt. Let’s just pause for a moment and let that comment sink in. God doesn’t waste our hurt. The bible says every tear we’ve ever shed is bottled up in heaven. Our tears are precious to God and anything we’ve gone through, no matter how excruciating, God will use for good, if we allow it. That is the hard part. Are we willing? I believe if we focus on the positive then it’s easier to see the positive. The same goes for the negative. I don’t know about you but I don’t have time to waste on being negative...

Welcome to my new series, Self Care. After getting engaged, I figured it was time to retire the Dating Chronicles and focus on something a little more encouraging. Although there are some unpublished blogs from that series that I’m dying to post… like seriously, the struggle is real… heehee In case you are new to my blog, here is a brief recap. I was married for 20 years, worked in ministry, wrote a book titled “Don’t Give Up”, traveled all over to speak and encourage others, then my husband left. I went on to film a movie with Dean Cain based off of said book while separated, then I spiraled out of control, walked away from God, dated a lot of men, found one I liked enough to date again, got engaged and started rebuilding my life with God and realized that I had neglected myself, to the point of self abuse, while attempting a pathetic rebuild of my life… I know there is a blog somewhere with a longer version… but that about sums it up. While trying to heal from my then husband walking...