Don't Give Up

Ugh… the infamous - Ghosted! What a load of crap! It is the most immature thing someone can to do someone that you have actually spent time with… talking, dating or even just texting. Just get over yourself, grow up and communicate! Am I bitter? No… lol - just irritated. Honestly the guy that ghosted me, I didn’t even like. Haha! I know… I know… it sounds bitter - but I promise - I really didn’t see it going anywhere… however, I would have never ghosted him - I would  have simply said… and I was about to… “I’m just not feeling it.” Boom! Done and done. Simple, honest and some closure. I guess it’s because I’m a grown up… and he isn’t. And for some of my readers that may not be familiar with this term (for you mom… haha) it means: someone cuts off all communication without explanation. (Insert hand on the forehead emoji) So it begins… an old high school acquaintance finds out I’m single and reaches out through social media. I immediately go to their profile to see if time has been good

I recently celebrated 43 years around the sun. This past week has been an accumulation of working, camping, fishing, filming and celebrating… the highest of highs - but you know what happens after a high - the low. We can’t stay on the mountaintop forever… and I've learned that every new mountaintop is just the valley for the next mountain to climb. Normally I would look for a distraction to keep me from feeling low - but today, I decided to embrace it. I took a deep breath, recognized what I was experiencing, thanked God for another year on this earth and then I cried. That hard sobbing, snot pouring, feels like it'll never stop kinda crying. Honestly, I feel guilty when I have moments like this. I feel like because I have so much to be thankful for…. my kids, my parents, my sister, my bestie, my tribe, my salvation, my job… and the list goes on and on that I should never feel sad or down. I have a full life. I have a happy life… but I'm slowly learning that - that doesn’t