Don't Give Up

When others unrightfully judge us it can be so harsh and unexpected that it stops us in our tracks but for some reason we let it define what we think of ourselves anyway. Why?  I find myself in one of the most difficult situations of my life and because I am concerning myself of what others will think of me I find myself crying in agony on the daily. My grandmother, 85, lives with me. She has kidney failure. She is dying. She is not eating or drinking enough to keep herself going and it is pure hell watching her go through this. We have people (that we pay out of pocket) coming in to take care of her during the day and the family takes shifts sitting with her at night until we put her to bed. She is wearing a diaper. She can’t walk. She can barely communicate. She cries when we bathe her. It seems so cruel. Someone that served God faithfully her entire life is now suffering a terrible end. It seems so unfair. But we are not promised fair. We are promised eternal glory. That will

Do you have dreams? Plans? Goals? A bucket list? Does daydreaming and planning towards these goals get you all excited inside and you feel like you just can’t wait to get started? Every positive thought leaves you feeling stronger and even more excited than the previous and then BOOM...suddenly the voices in your head begin to try to talk you out of moving forward? Does a negative thought pop out of nowhere, so crippling, that you stop in your tracks and give up? Why does this happen? And so often too? I have been seeking the Lord for a while on what is next for me? A few years ago He laid on my heart the idea of a Christian Talk Show. I’ve been blessed to co-host a couple and they are so much fun. I immediately dismissed the thought that this could become a reality, but it always came back, stronger and lingering a bit longer. As I would dream of the impact this could have on so many I would get really excited. I imagined me and a couple of my Christian besties sitting around wi