Don't Give Up

The last few weeks have been challenging. My husband got sick with Strep Throat and he was your typical sick male for a few days.  Right after he started to feel better my daughter started with symptoms of Strep and after two trips to the doctor it was confirmed she too had caught the nasty sicky bugs. Then as soon as she started to feel better my husband got sick again. My boys who are the vicious little carriers of Strep also have immune systems more battle proof then Super Man and are thankfully healthy.  I am caught in limbo. As a mother and a wife I am not allowed to get sick. I am allowed to not feel well, as long as I can still work and clean house and cook and do laundry and wash dishes and pack lunches and run errands and everything else I do on a daily basis. I have been plotting and I think I am going to make up some really awful sounding virus that there is no cure for but staying in bed for a few days in a dark quiet room where I cannot be in contact with any other human

Today is my Maggie's birthday. Seven years ago today God fulfilled all of the desires of my heart; and along with her my heart is growing.  As a young woman and even as a child I always dreamed of having two sons and one daughter. I remember wishing for it as a teenager and then praying for it as a married woman.  I have loved kids my entire life. I have dreamed of being a mother as far back as I can remember; playing baby dolls in my room and kissing my imaginary husband goodbye as he left for work. I started baby sitting as soon as I was allowed to and I have been surrounded by kids ever since. I babysat until I could legally get a job and then I babysat on the side. While in college I got a job at a daycare center and then babysat for some of the parents that brought their children to the daycare. I left the daycare while I was engaged and six months after I got married my husband and I started our family. We were married one year and three months before our first son was born.